Friday, April 27, 2007

It should'nt be this way...

It really shouln't be this way!
A machine can't control your life!
Much less make one happy...

Thursday, April 26, 2007

I shall start my work and end the crap here

What's going on?

Gianni Versace's daughter
What's going on???

" Be sure to do what you should, for then you will enjoy the personal satisfaction of having done your work well, and you won't need to compare yourself to anyone else "

I came across this verse a few years ago and eversince, it was truly ebbed in my mind.

I guess it's time I start my work. To face the issue of having any kind of eating disorder is quite difficult for gals like me today. I have to be thin yet not allowing anyone to know that I want to be thin. I have to think about how not to eat at certain times in order to eat at other times. I have to wallow in pity when I ate more than what I think I was suppose to eat. I will overeat to make myself feel better but hate myself for it didn't help either. In the morning, I will run. In the afternoon, I will think about running. In the night, I will think about running the next morning. When I am running Running RUNing.... I banged into this:

Yes. I will truly be dead. Even if I survive physically,

I will still be mentally - DEAD
I think she's been staring at it for hours...

I tell myself it must end here (this very moment).

Wednesday, April 25, 2007

I am fighting against the ODDS

cant wait for 3 - to leave my home
cant wait for 5 - my exam to commence
cant wait for 7 - the paper to end

As the day gets darker, my night grows brighter ;)
Finally I can really take a break after my 4 consecutive papers.
and this Rocks!

mum rocks

No. 40 done!
(took me so long...)

Sunday, April 15, 2007

40 things I want to do when I am feeling stressed

1. Come to blog 2. Eat redbean waffles 3. Catch a movie 4. Brush my teeth every hour 5. paint my room 6. Think of the colour 7. Go to ikea 8. Visit Shang Hai - it's beautiful from leong's blog 9. Write finish this post in ten minutes because I got to study again 9. Write secret letters 10. Quarrel with my brother 11. Run the roads 12. stare out of my window 13. Walk around in my room 14. Surf for funny stuffs to laugh about. 15. Think about aveline's B day celebration 16. Think about what pzh will get for me when he goes Taipei 17. To really finish this post in the remaining 8 minutes 18. To admit I have an eating disorder 19. To do something about it 20. To buy a dress 21. remove my nail polish 22. make a happy salad which means - lots of colours in it 23. to eat subway with keryn 24. to visit leong's blog 25. to 'scream' out I love god - in my head will do 26. To wash my clothes - manually 27. to play with my turtle 28. To read a P.D.L again 29. Go shopping with my gals 30. To buy a watch for mum 31. To visit 'shen shen' 32. To think of what job I'm gona get during holidays 33. To watch dvds after dvds 34. To visit the nigh safari 35. To smile to every one I see - a smile dont hurt will it? 36. To have a good rest 37. To meet up with people I havent seen for a long long time 38. To go K box 39. To buy a new phone 40. Make a post saying mum rocks

Tuesday, April 10, 2007

Happy Birthday CoCo!

Coco trying to act demure like averlyn
verdict: just pass
Coco and her new bag!
she said the bag looks photogenic... Isit?

Mushroom monster!!! Quote Coco 'Woah! It's

as good as it looks!' haha


Yee... so act cute

Nana's Mudpie! Gosh! It's delicious!

I just found out Coco like to take pictures in different expressions.

As we gather...

See! CoCo so 'Xin fu'...

I made a card for her too!


Yeap yeap! As you can see it's celebrations again... I guess Coco is really happy with her new bag - keep striking different poses lor! Yesterday, I then found out that CoCo like to take pictures lor... Alot of different expressions can! Haha... As usual we went to the most frequented restaurant by Coco - NYDC. Gosh... It's my first time tasting mushroom monster... It's damn good!!! It is already not in the menu le. We got it because got Nana's presence! Don't play play... and Nana is so sweet - she made mudpie for Coco again... But it is very funny. Nana tell Coco it's the last time she is making it for her liao... and coco was like 'huh!?, Don't like that lar... maybe when you grow old you will still make for me mah...' hahaha... Looks like Coco really loves Nana's mudpie. *ahem* Attention attention! I also witness that if next time Coco is rich she will sponsor Nana to set up restaurant! Whoever reads this post also witness k? haha... Although Lim is not present, she made a powerpoint for Coco. So Sweet.

Li wen,

Happy 22 !

Andplease GROW UP ;P Haha

love -ying


Saturday, April 7, 2007

Beautiful Japanese poem by Mitsuo Aida translated to English

Because it has lived its life intensely


the parched grass still attracts the gaze of passers-by,


The flowers merely flower,


and they do this as well as they can.




The white lily, blooming unseen in the valley,


Does not need to explain itself to anyone;


It lives merely for beauty.


Men, however, cannot accept that 'merely'




If tomatoes wanted to be melons,


they would look completely ridiculous.


I am always amazed


that so many people are concerned


with wanting to be what they are not;


what's the point of making yourself look ridiculous?




You don't always have to pretend to be strong,


there's no need to prove all the time that everything is going well,


you shouldn't be concerned about what other people are thinking,


cry if you need to,


it's good to cry out all your tears


(because only then will you be able to smile again).




Wednesday, April 4, 2007

Gay Blogs are interesting - you cnat bievlee waht I dcoirseved! raed on!

I cdnuolt blveiee taht I cluod aulaclty uesdnatnrd waht I was rdanieg. The phaonmneal pweor of the hmuan mnid Aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it deosn't mttaer in waht oredr the ltteers in a wrod are, the olny iprmoatnt tihng is taht the frist and lsat ltteer be in the rghit pclae. The rset can be a taotl mses and you can sitll raed it wouthit a porbelm. Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe. Amzanig huh? Yaeh and I awlyas thought slpeling was ipmorantt!
From IEEE Aerospace and Electronic Systems Magazine October 2006.

Doing a research on gay blogs right now. We need to collect a corpus of 150 k words from gays. In case you never come across the word corpus, it means a collection of many many words. Erm... like our dictionary is also made from corpus. Whenever I collect the datasets, I will start reading. I am very curious to know what they thinking. Some of them really very good looking. Damn. Some of them very emo, some very romantic. - Makes me feel that I shouldn't have hold any prejudice against them. And most of them really have a way with words. Oops... I think I showing trends of supportive stance for gay... But this collection is really very mind boggling. Cut and paste, cut and paste. Spent hours in front of my com repeating the same process. Now complaining about it... haha ... Anyway I found this kool stuff... hehe so happi.

Addicted to Rittersport

I am so addicted to this lah. They are truly therapeutic and nice. I have been trying all the flavours since the last week...
one word describes me all ' Chocoholic'

Monday, April 2, 2007

Buy Buy Buy






Aldo ear rings - $15
Ballerina inspired shoes - $30
kimono bag - $35
Fox top -$ 19
Pink tote bag - Free

Satisfaction - priceless!

( I sound so poser!!! hahaha)

celebration - 2 (continued)

happy April's fools & Bday
@ NYDC
Some people marching past...
quite interesting
My yummy baked rice

I decided to give pzh a surprise by oredering an extra cake. BuT... he chose the open air NYDC so the candle just could not light up. Its damn funny la. Too bad... he got an unlit B day cake. ;P Sounds more like April fool's celebration. I don't know why, I think birthday must got cake and song. very "lao tu"... that's me haha... moreover, I ordered the carrot cake. This is one of my favourite! That time before going walas with the gals, they ate this... And i got attracted to it. I still remember coco tell me it is different from our chinese style fried carrot cake... I was like 'DiaO!' -_-"

We were so lucky to catch some parade march pass;like a free show for us. We also din noe why there is such an event that day. The soldiers were marching side by side with the traffic in orchard road! that's so weird la... Anyway, I need to confess something more important. After pzh left, I went for an all alone shopping spree. Guilt-free?!

I don't really have an answer but at least I know I deserve it!

No more Work!!!

Mas, Amy and Moi
Me & Amy

Mas, Amy and yan rui

Time flies. I've been working in Vivo for six months. Through all the weird music, nice fragrance, sometimes awful though, fun loving colleauges and thoughtful aunties, extremely cold freezing tempertature, excruciating tiredness within me.... I have survived! I have survived! hahaha... I am so happy I stayed till my boss wants to shift out. Vivo city like wad keryn say is a dead city. The thing I dislike abt it is the temperature. The temperature there is as though we are polar bears. ant the very fact that there is NO CUSTOMERS I remember on days whereby i don't bring my jacket along - tts it. I''ll still feel cold hours after I knock off from work.

Hooray!~ no need to go back very soon i suppose... everything that is there is in town! haha...
I guess I just wana say a big thank you to all those aunties that are ever so sweet. Eileen bought me rittersport lo... Got me addicted to it. Have been eating it since last week. Amy is very nice as well.. teaches me alot of things... Candy... bla bla... Just very thankful.


Saturday, March 31, 2007

Celebration - 1 ( to b continued...)

Pzh's Bday present - puma watch
Modelling for his watch ;P
Crazi Long queue @ doughnut shop

Me @ chijmes.
It's beautiful la!
There's a big screen down there...
so down we went for dinner!
Boobby's special pizza
Pzh v hungri liao
honey lingers... pinapple, mango, honey...
v sweet! - I like!

Pzh Got slightly drunk! It's damn funny. He kept spuoting nonsense after dinner because he drank a strong drink... We had dinner @ chijmes yesterday while watching Liverpool Vs arsenal. Before we left it was 3-0, guess the results won't change much after we left... Liverpool's really strong at home ground...

Before dinner, we went shopping for pzh's prezie. Yeah got him this kool puma watch... I think it's damn nice la... Got it @ v good price too! kor told me to go this shop @ bras basah - prestige time, can bargain! haha... In city chain even if they offer discount also not as worth it...

Friday, March 30, 2007

A great performance Indeed


After 'lao lao' performed...
Lao Lao between the young gals..
K&A
AIleen and her no. 1 surpporter.
Which one should we get for her?
So nice!
While uncle was busy helping us to pack the flowers...
we "zi pai"
Li wen and moi @ 7 eleven
She's v hungri.

Yesterday's play turned out to be so much better than what I expected. I don't mean I don't look up to NUS productions; I've never been before to one... Its just that I did not go with very high expectations that the performance will be impactful. So I was really amazed with the script, actors, the flow of the show... It was really good. The content of the show was rather heavy though - abt cultural revolution in China. I had to follow very closely to what they were saying.
After that, keryn and me discussed about the play on our way home. We both agreed that ideologies are scary things. They really can change people's life and change someone into another person. The play was really interesting. I guess that's why Robin loon is such a respected lecturer in NUS. He definitely has what it takes to earn the respect of his students.

Back to the main point - Aileen performed well! So emo! Its a definite thing to pay particular attention to your friend when she's acting. So did I. And I realised she is that kind of "zhen Qing liu lu".... Great job!

ok... I felt quite bad towards coco cause I thought the performance is at 7.30. So i kept rushing her to finish up her cup noodles @ 7-11. Haha... then the notti Keryn knows that it starts @ 8 but still trick her that it is 7.30... Poor liwen. I think she burnt her tongue. (sori!) I guess she enjoyed the show too... Glad I got to watch with her cause I think she tried asking ard her friends but none seem to be keen...

I jus felt very 'shag' after the show cause the content is really very heavy. In any case, I think this production is a success. Tonight is their last night over there, guess it'll be a sparkling performance again. Sometimes, I just love the theatre. It's so magical...